well its currently the hardest time of the day for me, three oclock lol. i've just gotten home from school and i almost always binge. its the time of day when i usually break any diet i've been trying. but instead of binging as soon as i arrived home, i got myself a diet coke and got on my blog :) hopefully this can me a new habit. all i've eaten today is an apple for breakfast and a half apple for luch. totalling up to about 150 cals :) i'm doing pretty good, but i'm not sure i can do this. i hope i can. i just wanna be perfect. please answer my q's in the previous post!

so to be honest, i havent been posting because i've been eating normally. i flew to a nearby state for my cousins high school graduation and ate like a pig. ew its been disgusting. but my school is out in 2 weeks, and i wanna see how much weight i can lose in that amount of time. i'm actually pretty excited about it. my diet is mostly going to be made up of all natural, unprocessed foods. (except diet coke! its my weakness) i'm going to shoot for 600-700 calories max per day. i know i can do it, becuase back when i was anorexic i never ate lol. soooo i've also got some questions for those reading, if anyone is lol....

how did you get so many people to follow your blog?
how do you get so much blog support? (i only have 1 follower)
how many cals are you consuming per day right now?
how much weight are you losing?
how often do you binge?
what are some workouts that have worked for you?

feel free to only answer the q's you want too, but please answer, i could really use your help!
stay beautiful everyone!

help!

doing pretty good, only 730 calories yesterday and 740 today. if i continue at this rate, can anyone tell me how much wieght i'll lose and how fast? any suggestions on adjusting the calorie count?
pretty good day. i dunno what i'd do without music, it seems to help everything...

getting started!

i'm ready to get back on track with this. i've had 630 calories today, which i think is pretty good for my first day of really getting back into this. i have so much motivation now that i've seen the spring break pictures. my bff is gaining weight like its her job, so my hope is to be skinnier than her by summer :) she's always been smaller than me, and i'd love to beat her! any suggestions on a calorie plan to get started on? nothing too hard, my main focus is control right now !

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well spring break was alot of fun.
i got to stay with my friend, and we had alot of fun, not much to say about it. i stayed pretty active (volleyball everyday) and didnt eat much. i was having a great time, but on thursday night i wanted to party. i was out with three of my friends (whom i'd been hanging out with the whole time) went into town and called up a couple seniors who were staying in their own condo that had loads of alcohol. we couldnt stay long, so i drank as much as i possibly could. then my parents came to get me and i was sooo wasted, of course they found out. my best friend didnt get into any trouble because she didnt drink, and my other friends that did have parents who dont care. anyways i'm in alot of trouble. how can i make my parents forgive me?

ps. i havent been eating much... i'm mad at myself...

ugh. my mom annoys the fucking hell out of me.
she can wreck any day, no matter how great, all in a matter of minutes. the woman is truly gifted. anyways, instead of spending spring break with my lovingly detatched parents, and little brother, i'll be with my bff. she doesnt really party much but whatever. we'll still have fun. cant wait to get out there and party it up. leaving tommorrow at 5 so i should probably go. cant wait to ditch this town.

*tearsnsorrow,
thank you for being my first follower! i've followed your blog for quite a while now and i really admire you! if you ever wanna talk just let me know! thanks again! <3 you beautifulll

fail...

ate like a fatass today.
i just keep telling myself i'm going to fail anyways cause of spring break next week. maybe i should just watch what i eat as best i can then have fun for that week? then i'll have an excuse to be extra hard on myself ;) yeah, that sounds good. i'll just do a detox for the next two days for a flat tummy, have some fun, then get right back into it :)
stay strong everyone!